Thursday, April 23, 2015

Sometimes the Simplest Truth is the Hardest to Discover

Decades ago when I attended college (okay, it wasn’t decades – but somehow it feels like it was) I enrolled in a beginners painting class. Unlike acrylic that I use now, we were studying in oil. I am happy that I dabbled in oil paints so I know what the perks (rich deep colors and textures) and cons (eternal drying time. No seriously for-ev-er).

Besides that general experience there was only one thing I remember my professor teaching us. I can’t even recall her name, but I remember she was a wiry mid-adged woman, who not only owned unruly hair, but owned an undescribable obsession with cats.

She stood up at the front of the class one day and stated, “Never paint to sell.”


That is why I was going through college though. I was going to be a full time artist, and have lots of kids, and have a handsome husband, and everyone will know me for my art, I may even have a unicorn as a pet, who knows?

Somehow, in that moment of my youth, I felt like my professor was not a professor at all, but an alien from outer space speaking lies to dash our hopes and dreams.
Fast forward with me, if you will, to today. I’m sitting in my “art room” (more of a corner of a guest bedroom) writing this and turning over in my mind that statement that I heard about ten years prior. I want to know why I paint. Why take so much of my time and spend it with a canvas, paint, and brush. So many other things demand my time, so why make this the priority? The answer, more clearly than it ever was before, is not that I want to sell, the reason is so much deeper than this.
Now it is clear what my professor was saying. As an artist, if you paint only with the intention of pleasing a crowd, the joy of creating disappears.
I paint, because I need to.
Creating is part of me, inseparable, as a living soul is inside a body. Creating is who I am. The passion to create is my lifeline and when it suffocates, I too am affected.
Every piece of art, finished on canvas or still floating around in my mind is an extension of me. This may come as an obvious discovery. It took me nearly thirty years to figure it all out on my own though.

At times, I will create a painting with no idea where the inspiration came from. Once it is finished, I can then view it, study it and analyze why this particular painting came to existence. I have to dig deep at times inside my subconscious to find what drove the image to the surface. The meanings can be emotional or silly, but I do this so I can share the painting’s story with you. I only hope, that you will also participate in my passion through my paintings and art stories.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

"I never look back, it distracts from the Now"

I finally was able to update this blog. Now, I actually like being here! More cozy,!

However, even though it is updated, if I do not have new art to post...what good is it?

Since I work full time, and now have a little one, finding any time to create is difficult. Goodness, even when there is time, my mind is usually so drained from just getting through each day!

With the amazing support of a wonderful spouse, I was able to finish my next painting. This painting was so theraputic for me since the last time I painted was about 3 years ago.

I was definitely rusty but allowed creativity to flow from my paint brush.

Here it is! Silence in the Snow.

A stunning white wolf is walking through winter's snow at dusk. The quiet sound of snow crushing under each step is the only thing breaking the silence. What causes this lone wanderer to take such a journey? Perhaps he is in search for his family? Something to eat? Or maybe just wants to enjoy a little alone time from the pack.

18x24 Acrylic on Stretched Canvas.

Currently not available for sale. Will be shortly. When he makes his way into my Etsy shop it'll be announced.

Friday, March 11, 2011


You know, I don't want to even admit this, but I even think this blog can use some improvement. It's not that I don't like the design, I just think the content needs a little help. Though it is nice to see this place decorated with my art, I'm not blogging about anything else!

So, I'm going to revamp this. Not only am I going to change the layout/design, I am going to put more interesting info on. What specifically? I am still unsure--Let's make it an adventure!

If you have any suggestions of what you would like to see on here I would LOVE to hear your suggestions! Until then, it'll just be a surprise what I blog about. :o)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Koi Mermaid

This is really my favorite painting so far! A beautiful koi mermaid swimming with her koi friends. It is a 16 x 20 stretched canvas and is READY TO HANG!

I love watching koi, they are so peaceful and bring tranquility to me. I wanted to capture their beauty in this piece!

Click on the link to it on the left column to check it out!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Running Free - Palomino Horse

Wow, it seems like I barely made it this week with so much going on! I am excited that I had a moment to breathe and a moment to post a new painting in my shop!

Running Free is a Beautiful Painting! I love palominos and I've always wanted to have one. I decided to paint one in a beautiful scene with mountains found in Cache Valley UT.

This painting took a-long-time for me to paint. The details in the horse is astronomical!

To take a look at more detailed pictures, click on the horse to the left of this posting. That will take you to my Etsy Shop!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

A Mother Wolf and her Cubs

My latest painting I have for sale on Etsy!

Two adorable cubs keep mother wolf company as she relaxes. Whether they're waiting for the pack to bring food, Father wolf to come join, or watching out for danger, Mother Wolf makes sure she knows where her cubs are at all times.

This painting is stunning! So much detail! It is more vibrant than the low quality scan.

This is a 16 x 20 acrylic painting on stretched canvas! The sides are 1/2 inch thick and are painted black. Ready to hang!

Click on my Etsy shop to the left to see more details!

Friday, August 6, 2010

A Seal's Guardian

My first ORIGINAL painting is up for sale on Etsy!

Click on the picture to the left to view it in my shop!

I absolutely love this painting and am excited for it to find it's new home!